I have no definite insight of such words "frenemy" till this afternoon, unexpectedly I encountered one. But couldnt exactly put into words if she is to be tag as my "frenemy" for so many valid reasons that I could enumerates of.One, I considered her as my mentor ,she taught me all the best traits a Teaching Assistant should possess or to have and a classroom Teacher can ever wish for and I cant deny the fact ,that she is really very good in her craft .To justified my narrative regarding her profession I must proud to say that during our assessment we graded outstanding in our classroom observations and very happy for her and to the whole class for all our efforts was paid off positively and most of that I should say its because of her knowledge and passion for teaching kids and love for learning why we reached our goals for that day and for our children efforts as well .When it comes to our relationship or I should say our teamwork when working together I ranked it good { to me }.When recieving instructions I can say in brutal honesty I cant make it perfect though to me seems ok? But she always give emphasis on " refusal to accept any short standard of perfection" why I am having difficulty aligning positive results in my work that she cant help not to react gave blant remarks and spewing degrading ,insulting, maligning comments basing her actions and narrative about what she heard from the others saying about me my work and and my personality , that I must say its overboard and with malice to which I believe its from recyled stories that undrgo rimmed of edited words that has been buried by time that needs justifications and was never been brough up for justice.Maybe that is her as what she always saying thats her personality that I must be flexible with her so that we can accomplish something right and good .I need to be in a passive mode everytime shes again in her " unguarded behaviour " and again me in my controlled guarded actions the "dont react, just listen ,accept swallowed and ignore! else you will end up jobless on the next day for the grounds of disrespectful to the professions that she has that I cant even equate with { me undergraduate , no diploma ,stupid and old} I have no idea where shes getting her anger towards me or why her actions when shes in a bad moods was not aligned to the supposed "an outstanding educator "as what she proclaimed here self she is. I cant say we are friends maybe we are just colleague for I remembered once she told me when
I did positive gestures of asking some teachers for a coffe she adressed it negativley that is not good or not right to do but she didnt stated the reasons why? She dislike the scenario when Im talking close like friendly talks to the others teachers in school again she didnt even stated her reasons why? I am now having a very low self esteem and questioning my self if I need to find the nearest exit to quit my job or just stayed for another year and half finished my contract then leave, find the most emotional friendly workplace that I could find ,anyways she is moving 2 steps grades higher and we are not in the same department again but same school,.. Plesse help. .
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